Friday, June 19, 2020

Character: Marion Grey Kaijin


Second, we have Marion who is easily the strangest person I have. I blame how I got him. Him and Bliss are the ones most likely to randomly speak up, often at unopportune times. I have a sign I found at the county fair that really speaks him. "I don't have issues. I have subscriptions."

Marion Grey Kaijin:

Age: 26

Birthdate: July 14th, 1986

Story: Don’t Let Go

Physical Description: Marion's features are just as unusual as his personality. His Japanese heritage shows in skin tone and facial/body features however his hair and eye color is much more to his American side. He has pale blond hair, cut evenly at chin length. Bangs often hang in his face, usually on the left side obscuring an eye. For a while they were dyed icy blue to match his eyes, but now that has grown out and mostly faded. He has quite the unnerving stare and is not terribly emotive. Marion is 5'8 of slim figure with long fingers and a jagged scar on his right wrist that he keeps covered. There are two piercings in each earlobe and one through the tip of his left ear. Scars exist for former ones in eyebrow and lip. He is left handed. His clothing style depends on purpose, business to impress, carefully chosen to disguise, or androgynous/cross dress to shock & irritate. No personal preferences of his own though he does tend to the colors of black, silver and blues, especially pale blue.

Personality: Complicated. On the surface he's capable of seeming always in control, in charge. A force to be reckoned with and quite possibly dangerous. You want him on your side, not against you. But only the last part is true. With no personal self-worth he's as much a danger to himself as to others. He believes there is no 'him', just a shell that does as told for the family. He might as well not be human (he truly doubts it sometimes) and due to things he has done he is a horrible person. It matters not that his father is an emotionally abusive controller and forced him because family. He also believes he’s a complete failure to his family and must be punished because he could not live without Seth. That he could not be robotic and uncaring enough to resist the pressures that drove him to suicide. Now he must piss off the rest of the world so he will get what he deserves. Furthermore Seth must be the one to destroy him as the only one who truly loved him and that he betrayed. All his self-destructive actions fall into this mindset.

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

Why is Seth Doomed Messenger?

As I mentioned last time, Seth has been around in some form or another for a long time. I'm pretty sure he's the first RP character I ever made, for a Digimon RP that I don't think I can remember the name of anymore. This was like around 2000. He was created to be the opposite crest to a friend of mine who was running the game. Crest of Destruction, and his original name was Sariel Triton. Sariel was the name of a messenger angel I found on a list and Triton for the moon of Neptune, which is said to be doomed, because it's slowly spiraling in towards its planet. Everyone in that game would have crests that were opposite qualities, so while Sariel was Destruction, his opposite, was Creation. A boy named Soushi.

Sariel always had long brown hair, but because anime, he also had a white streak over one ear because "trauma". What that was changed over the years until I realized it was a dumb idea. And his eyes were bright purple, 'cause once again, anime. He was a pissy little street kid with a temper like you find until being around friends civilizes him. His symbol was a wicked bloodied sword. As I've come to notice from many RPs, they die off or blow up unless you have really dedicated people (and probably even then). This happened with this game, the creator who had several characters, most specifically Soushi, had internet drama, got pissed and disappeared one day. Some of us tried to pick up the pieces, but the game was done for. Because even then Sariel's story was so wrapped up with Soushi's, I decided screw it, I was taking him. Me and another friend, Willow, decided to take our characters and write our own story. Which is how Heikin came about. But that is another, long and ultimately sad, story.

I was left with the unfinished remains of the extensive world of Heikin, and I did nothing with it for a long time as it was too painful. I had other characters who were less entangled and I picked up with them. But Sariel and Soushi's existence together drew me back to them and so I decided to change their names and use them in my own works, most prominently in what would become Fairytales Don't Exist (FDE). Additionally Sariel was also the name of Kephri's mother in YinYang, which was a little confusing to have a female and a male one, so he became Seth. It still had the doomed angel thing going for it.

A version of them now existed in the fantasy world of FDE, but it wasn't quite enough for them. Honestly ever since that one long walk home where I decided how exactly I could understand Soushi and make him mine, he's popped up to talk at random, unasked for moments. They were never people who intrinisically had magic, they were just weird broken people. For a fantasy writer, was there enough to just write a modern romance story with them? The world they would now belong to (FDE's other world, the modern Earth that Ryukuto Academy now occupied) would just be "normal", especially where they were concerned. Still not sure how well it does as a gay contemporary romance, but Seth became the MC of his own story, the story of him and Marion (Soushi) and second chances. Titled Don't Let Go.

As to why I use the name Doomed Messenger? Seth became the writer, the one who wanted to tell stories. And he does get to tell one story in particular, thanks to his friendship with Kuro Tenshi, the singer of Dark Angel and fellow fan of a certain anime called Heikin... ^^


Monday, June 15, 2020

Look, a post! And a character. Seth Triton

As I should actually be posting more shit here, why not introduce some characters? This might produce some (shock, horror!) context here, but hey, no one is perfect.

So to start off, who exactly Doomed Messenger is. Ignoring one and a half or so names I've used online, every single one is based off a character I've created. Mostly it's their screen names. Something they would have used online themselves. There are six characters that are most prominent in anything I've made, they belong to...let's say three separate stories. There's a little crossover because hey, that's always fun. Here is the first of them, and the oldest. Also quite probably the first RP character I ever made. Currently named Seth Triton.


Seth Triton:

Age: 26

Birthdate: August 14th, 1986

Story: Don’t Let Go

Physical Description: Seth is 5'6 in height and desperately wishes he was taller. He has a solid, dense build without seeming bulky and a tanned complexion. No real clue about his ancestry. Brown hair reaches to lower back with long messy bangs he often tucks behind his ears. He usually just keeps it in a ponytail. Blue-violet eyes that he swears are more the latter. He's comfortable in jeans and t-shirts, hoodies. As long as it's loose and cheap. The more expensive the more uncomfortable he is with it. He doesn't like any type of uniform, finding them confining and can only be forced to put it on for any length of time (retail aprons or work shirts, any sort of dress code where it’s this or be fired). Prefers black and grey, sometimes blue and purple if they are dark, and white only as an accent. Carries a small hunting knife sheathed and concealed in the small of his back. Only gift he ever received from his father that didn’t get stolen or sold. Has a black motorcycle helmet depicting white angel wings. Later requires reading glasses which he absolutely despises to wear until Marion can convince him it’s a turn on.

Personality: Comes off as a confident, take no shit sort of person, even when he’s not feeling that way. Can be easygoing but in a blunt and rough way. Has a quick temper that flares hotly but dies out just as fast if not sparked further. Is attracted to danger and a good challenge. Loves to compete and if there’s a little danger involved (or a chance to get caught) so much the better. Has a need to prove himself to be just as good despite his poor background and drug dealer father. Wants approval but won’t take pity or charity. Secretly is a bit of a nerd but tries not to look like it, as he has an issue with weakness and there are just so many ways one can appear weak to society. He’s come to realize the whole macho-thing is stupid but can’t help feeling uncomfortable and defensive if he’s not thought of as “a regular guy”. So is still trying to work that out. Which is ironic considering the danger attraction, the knife and Marion.